The fourth word of "silver lining" suggested by Anne is vulnerable. I find it very interesting and I hope I understand it correctly.
On the outside I am not vulnerable at all. I am determined and tough and at school quite strict. But I know very well that some extremely hard situations from the past left me very vulnerable deep inside. I find my job more and more difficult every year and that makes me vulnerable as well. Do I eat anything special when I feel like that and that is almost every day? Biscuits, if there are any or something sweet. But most of all I find a quiet corner where I can be alone. In winter this is most often my bed but now it is a corner of my balcony where I can see the river flowing past the house. I don't need long hours - that's for summer - but just a short period of time to gather some strength to go on.
When I read Anne's post I remembered the fact that when I was a teenager I always listened to the river before going to bed - I would open the window for a few moments and listen to the sound of water. I still always find it relaxing and calming.
Have a sunny and lovely weekend,